In today's technology world it is not uncommon for our soldiers to have access to the Internet or telephone several times a week. I could not have imagined being married to a military man fighting in the wars of our past...going months or years without a word, just hoping the mailman brings you a letter that day. Today, I feel like we have become spoiled with this easy line of communication. We find ourselves upset after a few days go by without an e-mail [yes...e-mail, the very idea of mailing a real letter apparently intimidates a man] or a phone call. I am speaking about myself, but know that I am not alone, when I say that after three days of nothing I get pouty and lonely.
That being said, I must say that I felt this big when I realized that the com blackout I assumed was going on was not a drill and was in fact put into place until families were notified of their lossES. Our Fort Riley 1ID family lost two more this week and a few were seriously injured. Here I am, missing my husband and feeling completely selfish when I realize that no matter how much I miss my husband tonight...I will [God willing] see him again and hear his voice again while these two families will never have that chance.
Before I hear another "Oh I'm sorry" comment...I am not sharing this with you to get a pat on the back for being a military spouse...I am sharing this with you because there are people out there that do not support this war and do not think very highly for our military. You wonder why we are over there still? Because these IEDs are still everywhere...are we supposed to hand the Afghanistan people some bean bags and tell them to throw before they step for the rest of their lives? Would I prefer that my husband were home with me? Um yes!? But I support our troops completely as they work with these people and try to make a better life for them over there. [regardless of whether you think we should have gone over to begin with...the fact is that we are there and to just pick up and leave would ruin any progress we've made]
Just wanted to share my thoughts on the subject and throw in a tid bit that I forgot to mention before...while driving home from my before mentioned trip to Michigan, I came up on a truck that was flying an American flag on one side and a flag with all of the U.S. military insignias on the other. The windows were covered in writing saying "I support our troops". This type of thing may be common beside a military base...but I was in the middle of corn field Illinois and this took me by surprise. I sped up a little because I wanted to see the man who flew his flags so proudly [expecting to see an old military vet] and saw a young man that couldn't have been any older than 25. I seriously leaked from my face [crying would just be weak :)] when I saw that such a young person would show such support. That made my day...
Okay...enough rambling from me...off to bed. <3 p="p">
That is always a humbling moment isn't it. I think we are all a little selfish at times though. We all see what we ourselves are struggling with an forget that to some people, we have the easy route. Don't beat yourself up about this hun. You're only human. <3
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